sometimes i need to remember just to breathe sometimes i need you to stay away from me sometimes i'm in disbelief i didn't know somehow i need you to go sometimes i feel like i trusted you too well sometimes i just feel like screaming at myself sometimes i'm in disbelief i didn't know somehow i need to be alone don't stay forget our memories forget our possibilities what you were changing me into [just give me myself back and] don't stay forget our memories forget our possibilities take all your faithlessness with you [just give me myself back and] don't stay i don't need you anymore i don't want to be ignored i don't need one more day of you wasting me away with no apologies

When this began I had nothing to say And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me I was confused And I let it all out to find /that I'm Not the only person with these things in mind Inside of me But all the vacancy the words revealed Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel Nothing to lose Just stuck/hollow and alone And the fault is my own And the fault is my own I want to heal I want to feel What I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I've held so long [Erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I want to heal I want to feel Like I'm close to something real I want to find something i've wanted all along Somewhere I belong And I've got nothing to say I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face I was confused Looking everywhere/only to find that it's Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind So what am I What do I have but negativity 'Cause I can't justify the Way everyone is looking at me Nothing to lose Nothing to gain/hollow and alone And the fault is my own The fault is my own I will never know Myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel Anything else until my wounds are healed I will never be Anything 'til I break away from me And I will break away I'll find myself today I want to heal I want to feel like I'm Somewhere i belong

when i pretend everything is what i want it to be i look exactly like what you had always wanted to see when i pretend i can forget about the criminal i am stealing second after second just cause i know i can / but i can't pretend this is the way it will stay / i'm just trying to bend the truth i can't pretend i'm who you want me to be so i'm lying my way from you [no / no turning back now] i wanna be pushed aside so let me go [no / no turning back now] let me take back my life i'd rather be all alone [no turning back now] anywhere on my own cause i can see [no / no turning back now] the very worst part of you is me i remember what they taught to me remember condescending talk of who i ought to be remember listening to all of that and this again so i pretended up a person who was fitting in and now you think this person really is me and i'm [trying to bend the truth] but the more i push the more i'm pulling away 'cause i'm lying my way from you this isn't what i wanted to be i never thought that what i said would have you running from me like this the very worst part of you the very worst part of you is me

there are just too many times that people have have tried to look inside of me wondering what i think of you and i protect you out of courtesy too many times that i've held on when i needed to push away afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what i need to say too many things that you've said about me when i'm not around you think having the upper hand means you've got to keep putting me down but i've had too many stand-offs with you it's about as much as i can stand just wait until the upper hand is mine so many people like me put so much trust in all your lies so concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside so many people like me walk on eggshells all day long all i know is that all i want is to feel like i'm not stepped on there are so many things you say that make me feel like you've crossed the line what goes up will surely fall and i'm counting down the time cause i've had so many stand-offs with you it's about as much as i can stand so i'm waiting until the upper hand is mine one minute you're on top the next you're not watch it drop making your heart stop just before you hit the floor one minute you're on top the next you're not missed your shot making your heart stop you think you won and then it's all gone i know i'll never trust a single thing you say you knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway and all the lies have got you floating up above us all but what goes up has got to fall

i am little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard a handful of complaints but i can't help the fact that everyone can see these scars i am what i want you to want what i want you to feel but it's like no matter what i do i can't convince you to just believe this is real so i let go watching you turn your back like you always do face away and pretend that i'm not but i'll be here cause you're all i got i am a little bit insecure a little unconfident cause you don't understand i do what i can but sometimes i don't make sense i am what you never want to say but i've never had a doubt it's like no matter what i do i can't convince you for once just to hear me out so i let go watching you turn your back like you always do face away and pretend that i'm not but i'll be here cause you're all i got i can't feel the way i did before don't turn your back on me i won't be ignored time won't heal this damage anymore don't turn your back on me i won't be ignored no hear me out now you're gonna listen to me like it or not right now

nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them sometimes i wonder why this is happening its like nothing i can do will distract me when i think of how i shot myself in the back again cause from the infinite words i could say / i put all the pain you gave to me on display / but didn't realize / instead of setting it free / i took what i hated and made it a part of me [it never goes away] hearing your name / the memories come back again i remember when it started happening i'd see you in every thought i had and then the thoughts slowly found words attached to them and i knew as they escaped away i was committing myself to them / and every day i regret saying those things / cause now i see / that i took what i hated and made it a part of me [it never goes away] and now you've become a part of me you'll always be right here you've become a part of me you'll always be my fear i can't separate myself from what i've done i've given up a part of me i've let myself become you get away from me gimme my space back / you gotta just go everything comes down to memories of you i've kept it in but now i'm letting you know i've let you go GET AWAY FROM ME i've let myself become you i've let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you giving up a part of me i've let myself become you

i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you

i've
become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second i waste is more than i can take

but i know
i мая end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you